Raising the last white flag…

I’m done…I cannot keep going…I have tried everything…everything…and I pray all the time and study His word…but I must be missing something that I’m supposed to be grasping or doing because I get worse and I am more of a burden…I have nothing to offer…I’m not going suicidal…but I am exhausted…very literally in all aspects

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Vertigo…

Some days I feel as though I am going crazy…I am better…I am stronger…but I do not always trust what I feel…I am still in the habit of blaming myself for everything and believing that I am crazy…when something is “off”, it is my fault…or so that is what I believe…I am so tired of

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Hindsight…the wicked looking glass

Judging on hindsight, you set yourself up to fail…to live in a circle locked in the past…the only thing you can do with hindsight, to move forward, is to learn, grow and forgive A few days ago, I went for a walk…along with four of five of my dogs and my music…multiple playlists I have…each for different moods…the playlist

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Still…not perfect…but long ago…

I hate this…what is so hard about writing about myself to myself…no followers, readers, stalkers…and I have had two stalkers in my life…like legit, scary, you take every self-defense class that comes up type of stalker…that, by the way, is not an open invitation for someone to stalk me…and I like not having anyone reading

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